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Tue, Apr. 25th, 2017, 08:16 am
My reaction...

so like i was browsing online to find different exercise routines. but at any rate, am i the only one that doesnt like the tone of this message. yeah, i want a body like this. when i was in paramus last friday... i ended up going to the front of class cuz there was more space. and i suppose i was able to view myself in the mirror more during the routines. and all i kept on thinking was.. damn, my body looks small and tiny. not really all that muscular looking. but i just looked more petite than anything else. i guess i wish i had more meat/MUSCLE on me. i want to still get a little leaner but i want to develop more muscle mass tho, particularly in my arms.

anyways, i find its true, in order to develop a hard look, strength training, lifting heavy is necessary. but i still dont like the tone of this message. i mean, i like running. i like pilates. i like boot camp type of classes. i mean, just cuz someone has developed a lot of muscle mass.. that doesnt reflect how strong their heart is, that doesnt reflect their sense of endurance... or how flexible they are... or their sense of balance. while i feel i prolly have to learn how to lift more heavy... i like knowing more that i have a good sense of cardio vascular fitness more..

Mon, Apr. 24th, 2017, 10:08 pm
My endurance strength: growing stronger..

i feel i've been taking gym class for several years now...
and to this day, i surprise myself when it comes to my ability..
and to this day, i am still capable of seeing improvement..
still capable of pushing myself even more..

grit strength felt awesome to me again..
the routines he did were from older versions..
a combination of grit strength and cardio...
without a doubt an instructor makes all the difference
when it comes to feeling excited about a class..

anyways, one of the exercises was the 5, 10, 15 routine..
5 clean and presses.
10 lunges.
15 push ups..
i've done this routine a variety of times...
nothing new to me.
but being able to exert myself just a little more
made all the difference when it comes
experiencing this routine on a different level...
you do this routine THREE times.
doing as many rounds in each set within a certain amount of time..
first round, i felt like i pushed myself really hard.
by the third round, your suppose to push yourself the hardest.
and in my mind, i'm like thinking seriously?
but my third round actually turned out to be my best performance...
finishing the sets 3 times... and i was just starting the 4th set before the count down lady said 1.. first time ever for me to complete 3 sets like that... yeah, my sense of endurance strength getting stronger..

i stress endurance strength because its not as if were lifting more than our body weight. but i feel gym class focuses more on endurance strength instead... i mean... sometimes i see buff strong looking guys enter into bodypump or even grit strength for that matter. and while they maybe able to lift extremely heavy... i find sometimes... their first experience in a bodypump or grit classes in general comes across as difficult for them... because they lack that sense of endurance training. but if the role was reversed... if i had to lift more than my bodyweight.. i'd have more of a challenging time. and i feel endurance strength is where my strength lies.. i guess being able to lift extremely heavy and have endurance... would be having the best of both worlds... but if i had to choose one over the other... i feel i choose endurance cuz i like knowing i have a strong heart.

my actual resting heart rate is actually 56. Yeah, i've developed a good sense of cardiovascular fitness..

anyways, in bodypump..
my chest weight, its official - its 45 lbs...

Thu, Apr. 20th, 2017, 12:22 am
Strong sprint..

yeah, i went for a run. a little chilly.
but todays temperature was prolly the most ideal.
i mean, u heat up eventually anyways...

have to write this down before i hit the sack tho.
38:90 seconds...

best time for me so far...
i wonder if i can actually improve on that time even further...

Mon, Apr. 17th, 2017, 09:44 pm
and i felt like a BEASt in grit strength tonight...

and i wont lie...
and i ended up eating like a beast during easter dinner...
these past 3 months i've been weighing my food
4 oz of chicken. fish. or whatever...
6 oz of sweet potato or 2 oz of pasta..
and all that weighing i guess has ended up paying off
and showed my results...
because the first thing that ppl mentioned to me
when i had arrived was - whoa.. you lost weight...
and CORRECTION. i actually havent lost weight...
while i've lost body fat percentage,
i still weight the same as last year...
i've just gained muscle along the way too..

anyways, all that weighing and counting calories and shit..
OUT the door. ate so much lamb, potatos. 2 big slices of apple pie with ice cream. another helping of chocolate cake. some popsicle thingy... i feel i stuffed my face silly. and MAN, i just felt extra strong today in grit strength. just banging out the reps with speed and such intensity... felt just extra good feeling for me today. its a love/hate thing. i hate it when instructors switch things up. but than i love it too. i cant wait until the instructor ends up recycling tho and does the newest release down the road eventually. i would actually increase my weight selection for that now. kinda praying tomorrows instructor does the new release still. but not sure.. kinda hard to predict with him..

i find grit cardio has kinda started to feel boring to me actually. i dont take that class regularly anymore. but took it over the weekend. maybe its coupled with the fact that... i was looking forward to experiencing the latest release on that one... but there ended up being a substitute instructor and they ended up doing an older version... so i ended up feeling disappointed. i'm not sure. while i dont want to say that i'm like this perfect student in that class... i feel in a way tho, my body has adjusted to that class... and i feel i lack that sense of extra edge i use to feel while taking it.. maybe it is a matter that perhaps i need that extra push.... either way, i feel doing sprint intervals on my own... has grown to feel more intense, takes a lot more out of me.. than a grit cardio class tho... grit cardio class has started to feel more like a warm up class than anything else i think...

grit strength tho. omg. still love that class. still feeling that class challenges me all the time. i'd say the same thing for plyo... but i am unable to take that class regularly. grit strength tho... feel its definitely become my favorite out of the 3 classes tho..

Sat, Apr. 15th, 2017, 08:37 pm
and I actually dont really care about easter...

WHy? Its simple.
I just simply dont give a fuck.

Wed, Apr. 12th, 2017, 09:49 pm
My tonights accomplishments...

Sometimes what u think is impossible, is actually POSSIBLE...
i think when it comes to new releases...
i try and pick a challenge that i want to at least accomplish
or at least try and improve at..
and with grit strength.. it was the 8 by 8 challenge...
Damn, i just remember the first time taking the release...
i took that release before it was even suppose to be officially introduced...
and i still remember my reaction...
it felt like an over the top new routine to me...
thinking NO WAY, feeling like it was way advanced...
but accomplishing that 8 by 8 routine IS possible..
i accomplished it with the two routines actually...
what does it take?
First, i feel it takes familiarity.
after that, it just takes all your will and determination...
and your ability to not pause...
the last time i took grit strength with him...
the first routine...
i just made it RIGHT on the second...
right when the lady counted down and said ONE.
THIS evening tho, i finished just a few seconds before hand..
and with the second routine today...
with the drop squat and press...
that was my first time accomplishing it before the count down lady said ONe...
now i am feeling like cool..
instructors can switch it up now
if they want to. not that i have any control over when they switch it up..
but i'm just saying, i just feel happy with that set of accomplishment..

paramus instructor always mentions about dont be concerned about anyone else, but just yourself. and i admit, i agree and disagree with that statement. i just remember my first time taking grit cardio, i felt like a fucking **LOSEr**. even tho i no longer take that class regularly, thats the one class i feel had made the biggest impact on me.. i mean, for the life of me.. i could hardly make it back and forth across the room... everything felt like a fucking struggle. that class feeling so fucking hard to endure for me. it feeling painful to me all the time... like i would always DREAD having to attend that class. i mean, even tho i didnt particularly like that class... for some reason i kept on going back. i guess that there was something in me... that felt like a driving force, a sense of determination to get over such a hurdle.. but i feel that determination wouldnt have existed i feel if it wasnt for the other ppl in class. like my mind kept on thinking.. wtf? why i am so poor at this class... when everyone around me seems like to do so much better. like it had been the other ppl that made me feel determined to get past the initial struggle i had felt. but yeah, i agree with his statement in a way.. because everyone is going to be at a different level than you... whether higher or lower. particularly if someone is at a higher level... u cant let that set you back... and not have that stop you at least trying your hardest at your own level. if anything u can view others as more of a motivational thing when it comes to whats possible. but if u view it in terms of comparing yourself with others, and allow that to bring u down... yeah, than its true.. dont be concerned about others, but just be concerned about yourself. and his statement holds true to me in terms of working out on the gym floor. had this initial big issue of just feeling self conscious, particularly during peak hours. but now a days... i'm like fuck it. let me just be concerned with just myself and not everyone else around me.

anyways, i just got off track and started babbling...

bodypump: i ended up doing 50 lbs in the shoulder track. while i've experienced more challenging shoulder tracks, that doesnt mean this particular shoulder track is less fun. cuz it IS way Mega fun feeling to me. its a power press move, not a strict movement... so i was up for that challenge to increase my weight... wish i was able to handle 50 lbs on a regular basis... but i gotta get stronger tho.

love the tricep track still. in all the rounds, i used 2 ten lbs plates for the overhead extension. yeah, i wont lie.. i feel my triceps are actually stronger than my biceps.

ive realized the paramus instructor RARELy does core work out when i've taken his class. his big thing is more focused on stretching afterwards, guess i have issues with my right shoulder and hamstring sometimes.. but i feel its more than just stretching i need, but more like... deep tissue massage or something. i have a foam roller and this rubber ball i sometimes use. but yeah, love core work out at the end of bodypump with hasbrouck heights instructor... i feel already curious.. 3 months from now, i wonder what the core track is going to be like...

3 months from now..
how much change will i have gone thru...

Tue, Apr. 11th, 2017, 08:50 pm
Diet thoughts # 3...

i think the lighter u weigh, the more challenging a diet becomes. just cuz a lighter person requires less calories to maintain as opposed to a taller person, or heavier person.. which is why.. i want to gain more muscle. more muscle gains equals, more weight gain... which equals to more calorie intake to maintain...

still kinda wanna lose a little bit more bodyfat percentage, but i definitely wanna gain more muscle. feel weight training actually is far more important to me than.. actual cardio. but i'm not gonna give up running tho..

i feel when it comes to fitness, getting that dream body u want... diet/nutrition is the most important thing to have under control first... once you have that.. exercise comes second...

Tue, Apr. 11th, 2017, 08:21 pm
Sprint intervals...

went running today.
3 miles. 4th mile.. i did sprint intervals.

added in some fats to my diet today.
pumpkin seeds. sunflower seeds. walnuts.
bought full fat, greek yogurt but i regret that...
cuz i dont want the cholesterol.
my avocados werent ripe enough yet for me to actually cut.

instead of just having 1/2 a banana..
i just ate the whole thing.
had an apple.

honestly, i feel my breakfast tends to be my largest meal of my day. and as the day goes on, it decreases. my dinner being my smallest meal.. except tonight i guess. ate my regular dinner... and then on top of that... i had two chicken legs and wings from my rotisserie chicken i cooked.

feel i'm gonna have to do another calorie count
with the added fats. healthy fats being kinda important i feel
i think cuz it helps sustain my energy.
but they are high in calories.
but i gotta fit it in somehow within my calorie count..
which is 1800 - more or less...
too much work for me right now to calculate it all tho.

anyways, sprint runs takes a lot out of me.
last time i did them, it was during my 6 mile run.
i felt kinda devastated the next day...
so, i just do them when i do 4 mile runs instead..
i'm gonna try and do it at least once a week...

afterwards, i headed over to paramus.
grace had been in the girls restroom and said hello to me.
she even remembered my name..
she ended up taking the sandbell class too.
actually, i have a co worker who takes that class also
it was like, a couple of weeks ago..
that i saw him in grit strength.
i had walked up to him and said hi...
i think he had been surprised to see me...
perhaps it was strange to see me in my gym clothes...
feel he had been with his girlfriend at the time..
so, i felt this weird vibe...
i just said hello..
and then went back to my spot.
but he was in class today..
i was looking for a particular weight.
he approached me to help me find what i wanted...
friendly, but i feel i just want to keep my distance...
for some reason...
if anything, i have a curiosity in wanting
to get to know grace more...
just feel socially awkward maybe...
but afterwards, i worked out on my own on the gym floor...
she did too...
there had been a small exchange between us...
as she wanted to change weights...
telling me, that she thinks i'm stronger..
and she wanted to use the lighter weight
that i had been using...

anyways, i'm hoping we get the chance to continue with the new grit strength routine tomorrow. i just KNOW it. I already friggin' lost my chance with the monday night instructor... i just KNOW he's gonna switch it up next week. not that i mind. well, i do mind in a way, but i understand the importance of switching things up and plus it was my fault that i missed his class. just uggg, my stupid diet affecting me i feel... i'm just saying, i just want that extra opportunity to at least do that particular lastest routine just one more time at least..

and Oh, the whole sprinting back and forth in sandbell class while pushing the weight. so fun. i had used the whole room. wish it was more the width of the room we were able to go back and forth instead.. anyways, i feel like i had a lot of energy going back and forth. cuz when i ended up viewing others near me... they were at a different level i guess... not a judgment thing. just more observation. i have to remember where i started from. grit cardio being a love/hate thing for me when i first took that class. so fucking hard to endure. but honestly, i think now grit cardio is the easiest of the grit classes. plyo class being the most challenging. speaking of which... it had been an awesome new routine.. that i got to experience last sunday. holy shit, its just jumping, but it totally wipes me out. that class i view as having the most room for improvement actually. wish i was able to take it more often. still have to experience the new cardio routine tho. in an ideal situation.. wish i could do cardio, strength and plyo... on 3 consecutive days. cuz the routines all relate to each other... and doing it in that order.. u can experience the progression when it comes to its different level of challenges..

Mon, Apr. 10th, 2017, 08:54 pm
increasing my fat intake..

i feel i need to do that.
i feel i have a good balance of protein, carbohydrates and vegetables...
with my meals... but not necessarily fat.

basically my fat comes from
1 egg in the morning
1tbs of peanut butter
and 1/4 cup of nuts...
and a dab of flax oil in my dressing.
And sometimes I have fish.
But I feel I need more than that.
Have healthy fats with every meal/snack I have.

i should start measuring out to at least 1 tbs. of flax oil... bought avocados this evening. i'm not a big fan of it.. but supposedly its good for u. i think i'll start buying walnuts... and flaxseed...

also, i feel i may need to add more fruit to my diet. always kept that to a minimum these past few months. like 1/2 a banana. thats it. gave up on apples. i bought a bunch of apples today tho...

just need my sleeping to be more regular...
need more energy to perform too...

Mon, Apr. 10th, 2017, 06:18 pm
Diet thoughts #2...

i can NOt fucking sleep. feel restless at night..
went for a 6 mile run today and i feel i didnt perform my best.
am suppose to go to the gym this evening...
yet i'm functioning on little sleep at the moment...
have work early in the a.m...

feel like i'm going to take a break from this diet...
despite the fact i hit my protein count mark...
and that i feel i eat plenty of vegetables...
drink plenty of water..
i feel i get hunger pains so easily now.
like the way i did when i started..
there had been a while where i thought i adjusted...
but its just recently...
i feel insatiably hungry quite often
strong cravings of i dont know what...

my theory...
my body still wants to hold onto
the last of my bodyfat.
its fighting to keep a hold on it still...
not wanting to go down below a certain percentage..
just a theory, a guess...
not fact..

anyways, feel i'm gonna have to increase my calorie intake for awhile...
the way i see things, if i dont perform well..
thats when i know i have to change my diet..
your suppose to eat to perform...
and at the moment, i feel my perfomance isnt at its best...
i felt it in my running today...

my issue is, i just dont want to end up sabotaging the results
i feel i gained already tho...

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