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Wed, Apr. 18th, 2018, 11:01 pm
the impossible plank...

Oh yeah, a new favorite exercise i found online.
its called the impossible plank.

u take a plate. lay it standing up on its edge.
yeah, thats right, its EDGE.
hold your hands on the side of the plate.
go into plank position and hold on for dear life...

first time trying it...
i couldnt even hold it for 10 seconds.
i've gotten better at it tho...
can hold it for at least 30 seconds.
want to get up to at least a minute tho..

Wed, Apr. 18th, 2018, 09:58 pm
almost 6 months later... FINALLY getting into the groove...

I remember after my marathon experience and i ended up returning back to gym class, particularly bodypump... my mind felt like, WHAT THE FUCK?! EVERYTHING felt like it weighed a TON. Even the warm up weight, it felt like a TON to me. SO HEAVY. EVERYthing feeling extra heavy, extra difficult to lift even a light weight...

I've only been taking one gym class a week lately. dunno. been hesitant to take any other class due to my ankle. but i've been training hard on my own tho. I've been watching a lot of fitness channels in general... i think learning a lot about myself and my weaknesses. and its my weaknesses that I've been training/focusing on lately. after work, i've been training a lot at englewood cliffs gym. I pass by it first before i hit home... so, it works perfectly for me.

i feel I'm quad dominant, particularly on my right side... but everything else on my right, is fairly weak actually. weak glutes, weak hamstrings, weak calves... which are all muscles that are located on the back side. i also have a weak hip. this wasnt my first time spraining my ankle. albiet it was my first serious sprain... but it just makes sense to me as to why i've been prone to this... due to my weaknesses, muscular imbalances i have.. which i've been focused hard in correcting.

I remember I would end up having hamstring problems. always thinking, it feels SO TIGHt. like i have to keep on stretching it. but its the OPPOSIte. My hamstrings are already actually over stretched enough.. I need to strengthen it instead.

been working out my glute medial and abductor muscles too. I am reminded of pilates class. Sometimes u may see a big muscular guy participate in such a class... but they have trouble surviving even the simplest of moves... moving your leg sideways up and down..

if i was capable of training for the marathon all over again... i'd do it differently. Or, I guess i CAn do it differently... once i get into training mode for running again. and I think i am a strong believer that.. while strength training may not necessarily make u a faster runner... it will make u a STRonger, more stable runner. and that... focusing on strengthening your smaller muscles is just as important as the bigger muscles. Meaning, classes like pilates and cx i view as just as significant as like classes like bodypump. I have taken pilates in the past.. but these days, i prefer challenging myself more tho using some type of resistance more than whats used in class... anyways, i think that was one mistake i made. there was a point where i stopped strength training all together... lacking focus on maintaining my strength, but just focused purely on running.. i think even if it meant going lighter in weights, i think strength training is an important aspect to running also.

Anyways, tuesdays are my heavy training days where i try and do heavy front squats and deadlifts. and omg, today in bodypump class... during the warm up weight... i had to do a double take... like it felt SO LIGHT. did i really only have just merely 10 lbs on each end? it felt like a good feeling.. cuz i remember when i had returned to that class after my marathon experience... and remembering how HEAVY that warm up weight felt to me. almost half a year later... and FINALLY, i feel i had the confidence of using 60 lbs in the squat track.

curious about grit strengths new release. actually i am curious about all the grit classes. i have avoided those classes all this time. not sure if i am capable of plyo class. just hesitant cuz of my ankle. but in my mind, i think i'd be stronger in that class... due to the fact i've been focusing on strengthening my weak muscles. thinking about taking strength class tomorrow. not sure. I am just curious about its new release.

i'm thinking in may, i will see my podiatrist to get a follow up check up. really want to get back into running. but want to do it in an appropriate manner. after this experience, i want to continue to remain injury free...

Wed, Apr. 18th, 2018, 09:18 pm
BEST lunge track EVER!!!!

Sometimes when an instructor advises to go easy...
u gotta make up your own mind...
and just take up the challenge anyways...

even without the plate, i know it would have been still hard..
but with the plate, it was EXTREMELY hard
i feel i ended up literally gritting my teeth.

anyways, since i used the plate the whole entire way thru...
i'm like thinking ahead...
u think i'd be capable of using the bar
the whole entire way thru also?

Mon, Apr. 16th, 2018, 06:13 pm
Desi for the boston win...

AMAZING...
Couldnt happen to a more deserving person...
feel really inspired by her win...

and OH, she is only 5'1"
that to me is something...

I'm 4'10"
ive always felt my short stature
held me back from being a fast runner compared to others...
ppl like her inspire me tho...

Sun, Apr. 15th, 2018, 09:25 pm
Boston Marathon...

Never took an interest in such event.
but its currently my life goal to want to qualify and make it there by the time i hit 50.

this year, there is a great line up of american woman who have the potential to win this year. But OMG, i felt SO SAD when i read the news about Jorday Hasay dropping out. SO SAD feeling yet at the same time... understandable. its kinda like an inspiring decision to me in a way.. like it was a SMARt decision to make when u think about long term.

I feel like i am just an ordinary, regular person...
but even ELITe athletes suffer from injuries and set backs...

I think about my own ankle injury...
and i admit, i stopped running all together...
decided some time in march to just lay off...
not run the whole month of april and see how i feel in May...
and I am reminded...
i just need time and patience
to just let it heal completely...

Thu, Feb. 22nd, 2018, 08:34 pm
DESPERATE!!!!

Right so, I feel im still in recovery mode for my ankle. My ankle injury I feel being my first signifigant injury. I had no idea it would be such a slow process. At this time... im thinking that my marathon training was 18 weeks... and im thinking thats the amount of time I need to be completely healed... but im hoping sooner.


I feel I have made improvements tho. At this time... I run 1 mile once a week. For now... 1 mile is sufficient... anything more I feel im overworking my ankle. And I do it once a week... cuz I need time to recover. Last week... I ran 1 mile... but I felt my ankle got swollen afterwards... and I felt soreness. Had to take a week off before trying another 1 mile run


Ran 1 mile today. Best run so far... in terms of how I felt but I can tell my ankle doesnt feel perfect yet. I feel a knot a tightness. When I rotate my ankle is when I feel the most soreness. But walking, being on my feel all day at work is no problem.


Anyways, my pt ended in jan. But I feel ive been very disciplined when continuing with my leg/ankle exercise on my own tho. but still... I feel my recovery feels painfully slow. I just want to get back into running... start training for my 5k by april. And id like to actually participate in gym class more. But at this time... im being cautious.

I feel ive just grown desperate in a way realizing how painfully slow my recovery time seems to be. That... ive succumbed to taking supplements and vitamins. ligaments are made of collagen... and I need more healthy collagen produced. Anyways, ive started to take collagen powder. And ive started to take vitamin c... and oh yeah, and fish oil too. All things that ive read that are helpful for ligament repair. Yeah, in addition to exercice/strength training/stretching... I feel im digesting my way to recovery too.... when it comes to taking in the proper vitamins and minerals I need. I feel desperate I guess... hoping every bit of effort helps at this point...

Thu, Jan. 11th, 2018, 03:33 pm
and i have a lot of faith in physical therapy...

i honestly think so far physical therapy has helped my form in bodypump class...

i have always noticed that during the squat track...
i always ended up having this un even foot stance.
my right foot being slightly bit behind.
in the past i would try and keep my feet even...
but it never ended up feeling comfortable for me...
so, i ended up reverting back putting my right foot slightly behind..

in physical therapy while it was my ankle i went in for...
a lot of the exercises they have made me do
has to deal a lot with single leg exercises
dealing with my hip flexors and abductors...

yesterday i attended bodypump for the first time
after being absent for a couple of weeks
my ankle just wasnt feeling physically well.
but i feel i ended up crossing this hurdle
and for the first time...
i ended up feeling great improvement..
yeah, sometimes it takes GREAT discipline
to back off...

anyways, in bodypump class last night...
during the squat track...
i had been so surprised looking down at my feet...
that they were at an even stance...
and i remained at an even stance thru out the whole track...
that felt like a significant moment for me...
and i honestly believe it has to deal with physical therapy...
it helping me fix some of my muscular imbalances...

attended bodycombat class too yesterday.
and OMG, i prolly should have not done some of the moves...
as my physical therapist mentioned that i need to
EASE into running. but running in place in bodycombat last night...
just felt so good to me...
the last time i took bodycombat class several weeks ago...
i think during thanksgiving - oh man, so painful...
decided not to attend that class after that..
i have not gone running once since the marathon...
last night was the closest thing i experienced so far...
i know it. i'm eager to start running again...
but i gotta show some discipline...
and ease into first..

after this week...
i have two more weeks of physical therapy to go..
i'm gonna miss it.
my first day at physical therapy...
i loved the thorough assessment they did on me...
and i have viewed my training with them to be beneficial...
and i know that i am going to continue
with the various physical therapy exercises after its over...

Wed, Dec. 20th, 2017, 09:51 pm
Physical therapy...

right so, the other day was my first time going in for physical therapy for my ankle.
Mind you, i initially had a negative attitude about it due to my own past experience with physical therapy.
I remember after i had knee surgery...
i had to go thru physical therapy afterwards and i remember my experience feeling LAME.
i'm like thinking to myself that I can do these exercises on my own,
BUT this experience the other day turned out to be TOTALLY different.
REAL educational and an eye opener.

Right so, i'm there because of my ankle.
my ankle, the pain hasnt gone away.
i can not do any activities that puts stress on it.
i can walk and be on my feet fine...
but any type of running, hopping, etc...
it immediately causes me pain.

So, i go into physical therapy
but not only do they focus on just my ankle...
but my whole entire lower body.
essentially, my first meeting was an evaluation testing out my strengths and weaknessess.
and in a lot of ways, it reminded me of my last personal training session i had a while back, but i feel this was more sophisticated, more in depth. but my personal training session back then... was just a free one day trial thing. How in depth would if it had been if i actually paid?? At any rate, she's testing me out. comparing my left and right side of my body. and while i always thought i always had a lot more strength in my right leg... due to my quad muscles being THAT much more bigger with more significant amount of muscle... the truth of the matter is, i have a lot more stability and strength on my left side than my right.

I'm there lying on my stomach. I have my right leg bent. I raise my leg, and she presses down on my hamstring... telling me to resist her so that my thigh doesnt end up contacting the bed. But i was unable to resist with my right leg. My right leg just flopping down against the bed sheet. She did the same EXACT thing with my left leg... and i was totally able to resist her pressure tho. CONCLUSION... my glute muscles on my right side is that much WEAKEr than my left... which also causes me to have a lack of stability on my right side. When I had to stand on one leg on my tippy toes... i just had a lot more stability on my left side compared to my right.

I REMEMBER, with my personal training session back than... my interest was being able to strengthen my left leg, particularly my quad muscles because I always viewed it as a lot smaller than my right. and I remember while I am doing these various exercises... the trainer commented how it seemed interesting... that i seemed to have more balance on my left leg compared to my right. but that issue was never really addressed. It was just a mere observation she made. And well... i feel with physical therapy the other day... they gave me a reason why my left side comes across as a lot more stable than my right. it just ended up opening my eyes and awareness more... making me go, WOW...

My UNPROFESSIONAL OPINION on my legs. I think my right quad muscles, i think its strength compensates for the weakness behind my legs. And my left leg, the back of my leg is a lot stronger cuz it compensates for the weakness with my quad muscle.

Anyways, as a part of my physical therapy - an exercise i am suppose to do on my own at home... is the one legged hip bridge in order to strengthen more my right glute muscles. Yeah, i went for physical therapy for my ANKLE, and here i am doing exercises to strengthen other parts of my body.... because well... i guess its all interconnected in a way. its an exercise i've done in gym class many times... and now its a movement i have to do in order to also help with my ankle stability.

i also have a couple of other ankle/feet exercises that i have to do, using this resistant band. when comparing ankle strength, my right ankle... just comes across as just weaker in general compared to my left...

anyways, i feel hopeful with this physical therapy experience. During my first visit... they gave me an ankle, lower leg massage... and ice treatment with these weird things that they taped on me.. that pulsated. i guess providing more blood flow to the area? I dunno... but it all felt good.

i just feel hopeful with this experience that this will be highly beneficial.. and that i will truly end up eventually becoming overall stronger because of this...

Tue, Dec. 12th, 2017, 05:16 pm
OMG, I have a partially torn ligament...

HOW the fuck did i end up running 26.2 miles
with a partially torn ligament??

yeah, saw my podiatrist today and he went over my MRI results...
and what has been causing me the debilitating/sharp pain
is my partially torn ligament.

GOOD NEWS, its just ONLy PARtIALLY TORN.
NOT fully torn.

anyways, no wonder I found myself having trouble in bodycombat class.
Found it PAINFul for my ankle. So, I held back and decided not to attend lately...
bodypump class is really the only class i've been taking since my marathon...
and I suppose now, its really the only class I will be taking for a while...

been getting back into weight training on my own.
I am slowly starting to get in the groove again
I gotta take it lightly and gradually increase weight a little at a time.

Anyways, LAST friday my ankle pain felt the WORST.
ended up limping most of my time at work.
but TODAY, the pain has subsided.

I am currently wearing a soft cast.
I have to wear it for an extra week.
AFter that, I need to participate in
a 6 week physical therapy session...

NO RUNNING for at least another additional month...
but no worries, I'll return back stronger...

Tue, Dec. 5th, 2017, 08:49 pm
sigh...

Ended up having another podiatrist appointment today. A month later after the marathon I still feel ankle pain. Apparently whatever type of injury I have is severe... as he recommended to get an mri done. I scheduled one for this friday. The last time I got an mri... which was my knee... I needed to get surgery done. I hope this is not the case with my ankle. But who knows. I just want my ankle to be fixed.

Also, the dr reapplied a soft cast on me. Its annoying cuz... I feel my foot cant fully move in such a way. But I realize its for the best.

i still put in my 3 mile elliptical training in. It felt unsatisfactory, but what can I do. I need to maintain my sense of aerobics somehow. Maybe I'll try something different and try rowing next time.

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